I feel so numb; so far away
What happened to my arms and legs?
I can't hear noise; did I speak?
Why are muscles growing weak?
I'm losing balance; I've fallen down
The room is spinning round and round
Like tracing lines that have no end
I've tried but fallen down again
No one can hear me on the floor
Screaming into rooms next door
Hearing voices inside of me
They scream for help so silently
I blacked out but couldn't tell
Where's my heart or body cells
Waking up near cold white beds
Tears from eyes soon start to shed
What just happened?; I wonder why
Why people soon did cry
I think my mother finally spoke
"Oh Dear God he had a stroke."
My body stuck with cords and metal
Caused my blood to sit and settle
But did I know that to this day
My life would never be the same?
I still think back and wonder how
I hurt myself by shutting down
And can't help wonder if I'm to blame
But now I wish for things to change
I can't do the things I wish I can
I can't accept myself for who I am
And ever since the age of ten
Life would never be the same again
But to this day I still consider
Reasons why to not be bitter
For if that blood clot had reached my head
I would have been as good as dead