Why can't I awake this time?
I keep watching someone die every night
I can't even tell if I am alive
Have I finally lost what's left of my mind?
I can feel something envelop me
Breaking my skin; I'm letting it free
But looking at my reflection this time
The face looking back isn't mine!
I find its getting harder to relate
I keep watching someone make the same mistakes
I feel like any moment I will break
Watching scenes that seem so fake
Like a broken record spinning in circles
I can't seem to get over these hurdles
But the scenes I'm watching; I'm not to blame
This really is a sadistic game
I'm trapped in a never-ending dream
Or at least I think so for when I went to sleep
I don't remember ever waking
Will you please come here and shake me?
What if I'm dead; could I even tell?
What if there's no heaven, purgatory, or hell?
What if I'm forced to relive my youth?
In someone else's body; what is the truth?
This is driving me mad! I can't awaken!
Or am I staring through dead eyes completely forsaken?
The line between fantasy and reality
Has forever been blurred by my own mentality
But here I lay; watching someone die
Watching someone through God knows who's eyes
Scene after scene; dream after dream
Will someone end this constant stream?
I can't tell if I'm awake in this never-ending game
The memories remain, but nothing looks the same
Yet the pain I feel seems all to actual
But the attention to detail isn't factual
And upon looking further into me
I'm guessing its plain to see
That the eyes I am looking through
Is not who I claim to be
Or have I really awoken to write these verses
The more I think; the more I'm nervous
And I can see through my dreams
I can see just how I am worthless
I have no choice but to watch my failures
Perfectly thrown together like a suit that's tailored
Just to my disliking; but we'll never have verity
Am I dead or alive?; I'll never have clarity